some stuff.

i started babysitting dean yesterday :)

he is so sweet.....

&& this is him falling asleep while i burped him, heh

xoxo. kathi

i don't mean to gossip, buuuuut....

isn't that what blogs are for?!

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS JON GOSSELIN THINKING?

he is on the cover of the new people mag, so of course i just read it

&& now im pissed.

i just need to preface this by saying that as an avid watcher of this show, i have ALWAYS been SO annoyed with kate. i think she is a crazy, mean mean lady. i think she has her own reasons for being that way -- but i just needed to say that i am not a fan of kate either.

HOWEVER, they JUUUUUUST announced their divorce about 3 weeks ago.... and here we are. jon & this dumb IU girl in france, holding hands & posing for pictures. going to jewelry stores looking at rings & talking about their new relationship.

DOES HE NOT REALIZE THAT ALL THE MONEY HE HAS IS THANKS TO 8 CHILDREN!?

hello jon, that little trip to france came from the money your ADORABLE children made from THIER tv show. and that ring you're about to buy for her -- also from that bank account. SWEET MAN, reallllllly SWEET.

ugh, what a freaking idiot.

sorry for the rant.

that's all.

xoxo. kathi

kooky cupcakes <3

okay...soooo i've not really been doing a lot except totally enjoying my summer by doing as little as possible! but the other night i was hanging out with justin & we decided to make some snacks for all the little children of world, hah but no just a few... (justin's house is currently filled for the summer with all his brothers/sisters & their children -- maria, jesus, peewee, april, brandon, brent, debbie, and jay) && i've got my precious genevah, elias and gavin <3

sooo since I LOVE CUPCAKES, SO........ we made kooky cupcakes (cupcakes inside ice cream cones) less messy than REAL ice cream but still messy :)

i dyed the icing green & worked really hard on the DQ swirl

we sprinkled some of them

hahahh, they looked pretty cute (but immediately after this picture justin picked them up & completely messed up all the sweet icing work i did, haha)

that's all. oh, by the way. they were YUMMY (mostly bc it was funfetti cake, of course)

xoxo. kathi

writer's block.

sorry guys, i can't seem to figure out anything to update about.

gimme a few..... && ill be back.

xoxo. kathi

sadness.

i was going to blog about something that happened at church --- or something else pleasant. but yesterday was anything but that...

i am sure that everyone already knows what happened, but since this is my blog -- i will tell you what happened yesterday from my point of view.

11:45 -- arrive home from church.

12 -- head to lesli's (my sister) so she can dye my hair, pull into her driveway & notice all of the people at her neighbor's house. go inside & ask jason (her husband, my brother-in-law) what happened & he said he didn't know but that they had JUST got home from their camping trip & then all of these people showed up.

12:15 -- jason asks lesli to please call over there because he is concerned & wants to make sure that everyone is okay over there. he said he was worried that is was something about kelly (their daughter who was in california visiting her boyfriend, ian). lesli calls over there & asks if everything is okay & before i knew it she was screaming 'NO' into the phone & was crying so loud that the whole house filled with the sound of her voice. lesli got off the phone & said 'kelly is gone, ian shot her in the chest'......genevah (her 11 year old daughter, my neice) started crying. & jason got up & went out to the garage.

12-3 -- so many people filled their neighbor's yard. so many young people outside mourning the loss of a sweet girl. people from next door came over & talked to lesli & jason -- to tell them what was going on & for a friend to lean on. fb is FILLED with people talking about what happened -- chaos.

5 -- a call from lesli to tell me that ian had been caught. & that he was dead. more sadness & chaos.

i wasn't close to either one of these people -- by any extent. i grew up with ian in school since forever & i watched kelly grow up next door to my sister for the past 8 or 9 years. either way it is so sad to see these 2 people's lives cut short.

yesterday, two young lives were ended way too short. nobody will ever understand why ian did what he did, but we know that wherever they are they are happy now. & with that comfort, i feel relief. there is no more pain or anger or suffering for kelly & ian. no more...ever again.

lesson learned: life is way too short. choices you make severely impact the people around you, so make wise choices. & tell the people you love that you love them every chance you get.

i am unsure about a lot of things right now, but i am sure of this: you only get one chance here on earth with the people you love, & that there will NOT be a day when you get to come back & try again.

prayers & love to both the roomes & yorks & all their friends & families.

rest in peace both kelly roome & ian york. i hope you're dancing with jesus rejoicing in the beautiful short lives you experienced (& also that you're finding out from the source why michael jackson turned white, haha).

xoxo. kathi

rick warren. (i'm soul searching)

i am re-reading the purpose driven life -- the last time i read it was in 2003 when i was just a little 15 year old baby :)

ive decided i need to rediscover my purpose. it is a 40 day journey to discover your purpose -- but i think im gonna read it faster than that, ya know? i don't know if i'll post about ALL of the days, but ill start today & see how it goes.

&& anyway -- day 1.

it's not about me. ...

1. my purpose is not to use god to fufill my purposes, but to allow myself to be used for his.

2. i get to choose my career, my friends, my spouse, my car...but i dont get to choose my purpose.

3. without god, life makes no sense.

&& therefore;

self help is no help at all. self sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. (matthew 16:25)

everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him (colossians 1:16)

xoxo. kathi